where is it?!!!

the dreamy bartender i blog stalk posted a smashing pumpkins song this week. i've been thinking about this album for the last month. seriously. i have been frantically looking for it. i do this every three years or so. i cannot, for the life of me, find it. sure...i could just download the album and be happy...but NO! i've had this cd since the 8th grade. i went to this albums concert and it was amazing and it was the first rock concert i went to without my sister (nevermind we were with my friends sister)...but i want to listen to the album i bought in 1994 (and have kept surprisingly scratch free). i want the album we listened to everyday after senior year while we sat in the parking lot of ___ and did ___. i want the album that lifts me out of sadness and reminds me of the feeling of excitement a friday afternoon can bring. i want the album i listen to when the windows are down and it cannot get any louder. the album that takes me through the mountains on a perfect day and i forget why i was bummed and needed to find the album in the first place. the album that was perfectly romantic before i learned how messy real life gets. sigh.