Monday, May 31, 2010

a complex inspiration.

i feel the need for some serious focus. i focus well and stay on track when i am somewhat isolated. i consume myself with my new ideas or projects...i cannot be interrupted.
when i traveled around and lived on my own i read (and reread) kerouac, ginsberg, even some batshit burroughs...

i was out of college, older, wiser but i was heavily impacted by these writings...

i feel kerouac has this messy romanticism. he irritates me and is arrogant and selfish and misogynistic and inspiring...
and he's a total dreamboat.

Belief and Technique for Modern Prose, a list of thirty "essentials":
1. Scribbled secret notebooks, and wild typewritten pages, for your own joy
2. Submissive to everything, open, listening
3. Try never get drunk outside your own house
4. Be in love with your life
5. Something that you feel will find its own form
6. Be crazy dumbsaint of the mind
7. Blow as deep as you want to blow
8. Write what you want bottomless from bottom of the mind
9. The unspeakable visions of the individual
10. No time for poetry but exactly what is
11. Visionary tics shivering in the chest
12. In tranced fixation dreaming upon object before you
13. Remove literary, grammatical and syntactical inhibition
14. Like Proust be an old teahead of time
15. Telling the true story of the world in interior monolog
16. The jewel center of interest is the eye within the eye
17. Write in recollection and amazement for yourself
18. Work from pithy middle eye out, swimming in language sea
19. Accept loss forever
20. Believe in the holy contour of life
21. Struggle to sketch the flow that already exists intact in mind
22. Don't think of words when you stop but to see picture better
23. Keep track of every day the date emblazoned in yr morning
24. No fear or shame in the dignity of yr experience, language & knowledge
25. Write for the world to read and see your exact pictures of it
26. Bookmovie is the movie in words, the visual American form
27. In praise of Character in the Bleak inhuman Loneliness
28. Composing wild, undisciplined, pure, coming in from under, crazier the better
29. You're a Genius all the time
30.Writer-Director of Earthly movies Sponsored & Angeled in Heaven

Friday, May 28, 2010

the great strand.

i'm off to the beach for a looong, much needed weekend vacay!!! see you later taters!
p.s. it's biker weekend. jealous? yes. yes you are.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

life goes on...

i used to play this song every day when my mom drove me to school. my best friend and i went to tons of dmb concerts and it was so fun and we were little and silly and felt so cool.

a few years ago my 9th grade fantasy came true when i listened to this album on a road trip home from a wedding with my 9th grade crush. he (unfortunately) was no longer my crush but rather a very close friend and we sang aloud and giggled at my dream coming true. it was great.

i love this cd and just downloaded it to my computer for summer fun :)

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

bit of a quote kick as of late...

two days until i get to adventure.....

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Monday, May 24, 2010


i've had the beat boys on the brain lately. a recent project brought back memories of when i consumed their stories...
i. just. do. not. think. men. are. made. the. same. any. more. boo.
although i must remember all these dudes were drug addicted, alcoholics as well sooo...

they just look so clean cut!
swoon! who wouldn't have fallen in love with neal cassady and written about their torrid affairs?
spoiler picture into next weeks mmm!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

happy happy does...

you know how i've been all yea me! (insert karate chop) feel good! you rock! kick ass! wahoo! yippeekikyeeye! word up! lately? this website is badass and it is totally encouraging me further...

Friday, May 21, 2010

Thursday, May 20, 2010

horoscope....EFF YEAH!

You need to show the world what you are capable of — and fortunately, your energy is amazing right now! It’s a good idea for you to step up a bit and talk up your big achievements.


Tuesday, May 18, 2010

oh how i've missed you.

i found this cartoon on an old friends fb page the other day. we haven't spoken in years but already she has me giggling incessantly.

Monday, May 17, 2010

in full bloom

in honor of the little brats that got jail time for robbing orlando bloom's (and several other celebrities) home and posting pictures of their siblings wearing their shit....
round collar yum
piece of t-shirt hat yum

pirate yum

lord of the rings yum


seriously good hair yum

secret of me: you are hot dude, you wear tortoise shell wayfarers...i am yours forever.

Saturday, May 15, 2010


great new night...

Friday, May 14, 2010

I am not interested in money.
I just want to be wonderful.
-Marilyn Monroe

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

wanna see me disco?

sometimes i forget to listen to le tigre. then i remember and jump around my house spazing out to one of my favorite bands of all time.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

be funky

"On the way home Liam went in my car and my mother took hers. Liam sat in the front seat for the first time, something that is so much more significant than I can fully understand, and I lectured him on important things, like how life is ruled by being funky, and if we’re not funky enough than there would be specific consequences.
I turned up James Brown and we danced as funky as we could dance the whole ride home

excerpt taken from caragh on blogroll wait, what.

Monday, May 10, 2010

ex-hugh-es me!

not very men can make black satin shirts look dreamy...
aaaand i bet that is a pea coat...

WHA?!!! how have i NOT seen this furry man movie?!!!



he is a grown man. and he's making board shorts and a frickin fedora look ahhmaze. wtf? what is he, made of sparkles and magic?

is that his child with the little fro? he has a fro child. O.M.G.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

great advice.

here is a lovely excerpt from the article "Lighten up on yourself to have a better life" it's all about women who constantly feel like they don't do enough, love enough, or achieve enough...

So let's drop it, maybe?

Let's just anticipate that we (all of us) will disappoint ourselves somehow in the decade to come. Go ahead and let it happen.

Let somebody else be a better mother than you for one afternoon. Let somebody else go to art school. Let somebody else have a happy marriage, while you foolishly pick the wrong guy. (Hell, I've done it; it's survivable.)

While you're at it, take the wrong job. Move to the wrong city. Lose your temper in front of the boss, quit training for that marathon, wolf down a truckload of cupcakes the day after you start your diet.

Blow it all catastrophically, in fact, and then start over with good cheer. This is what we all must learn to do, for this is how maps get charted -- by taking wrong turns that lead to surprising passageways that open into spectacularly unexpected new worlds. So just march on. Future generations will thank you -- trust me -- for showing the way, for beating brave new footpaths out of wonky old mistakes.

Fall flat on your face if you must, but please, for the sake of us all, do not stop.

Map your own life.

By Elizabeth Gilbert from O, The Oprah Magazine © 2010

Elizabeth Gilbert is the author of "Eat, Pray, Love" and "Committed"

Saturday, May 8, 2010

say it.

i am often super self conscious about my blabber mouth but i will tell you what: as long as i still use my filter and remember about feelings and stuff...i will always let it rip when necessary and thank god i do. at this point in my life there is no restraint on expressing how i feel about a situation that is yucky or wrong. after, i feel free and proud of my ability to not chicken shit out of being true to myself.

go me!

i wish this for you my darlings...

Friday, May 7, 2010

where is it?!!!

the dreamy bartender i blog stalk posted a smashing pumpkins song this week. i've been thinking about this album for the last month. seriously. i have been frantically looking for it. i do this every three years or so. i cannot, for the life of me, find it. sure...i could just download the album and be happy...but NO! i've had this cd since the 8th grade. i went to this albums concert and it was amazing and it was the first rock concert i went to without my sister (nevermind we were with my friends sister)...but i want to listen to the album i bought in 1994 (and have kept surprisingly scratch free). i want the album we listened to everyday after senior year while we sat in the parking lot of ___ and did ___. i want the album that lifts me out of sadness and reminds me of the feeling of excitement a friday afternoon can bring. i want the album i listen to when the windows are down and it cannot get any louder. the album that takes me through the mountains on a perfect day and i forget why i was bummed and needed to find the album in the first place. the album that was perfectly romantic before i learned how messy real life gets. sigh.

Thursday, May 6, 2010


i get to pick up one of most important bff's today from the airport. she lives far, far away and we are both in a rut and plan on out rutting ourselves together! yea! she is the best and i love her and we are a lot alike (our birthdays are a day apart) so we should always remember to take each others advice. always.

such an ass.

my super cute democratic parents busted their asses (literally and figuratively) for a local election this week and the results were FANTASTIC!!!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

i offer this to you...

go ahead. shake it. i know you want to.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


i have some PHENOMENAL girlfriends that recently pulled out all of the stops when i needed it most. they are always awesome but at the moments when you made bad choices that you knew were bad choices and your friends knew were bad choices and you did it anyway and you just need to let others take care of you and let you be pathetic and self deprecating without excessively apologizing or agonizing about being too those moments my girlfriends leave me speechless with gratitude and love.

thank you, ladies...this sweet poem of unconditional love reminded me of you :)

Monday, May 3, 2010

mmm: suspended until next week

i didn't really have a good internet connection this weekend and boys are the devil so we will be suspending man meat monday today BUT we will have cat man meat monday:
the rupey monster! he'll eff you up with his handsome snuggles.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

time again.

today marks the day i get back on a track i ran on steadily about a year ago. winter and cold weather and blah blah blah got me distracted but do not fear...awesome will reappear.